Finding Routine

 I am very slowly…working on…rebuilding my routine. And I love routines. I don’t know…if people know that about me. But, I like having…a consistent routine. I don’t always follow it, but I like having it. And I’ve been for… the last, like, year. I’ve been trying to figure out…what routine works best…for my…uh, mental, physical, spiritual health. So I think,…that I’m getting there. I’ve been…following…uh, I’ve joined several, uh, like online streaming workout services. And…one of them, um, Figure 8 Fitness, which I love, uh, does…monthly challenges. And so they provide you with, like, a workout…for every day and then like a little…umm…you know, tip of the day or motivational…thing of the day and it’s awesome. I love reading them every day. They’re very, umm, uplifting and they make you think, you know, a little health-minded for the morning which is nice. So, you know, every morning I get up and I do whatever workout, which, so my thing is that I…also am part, uh, I have Beachbody On Demand. Which is also fantastic. They have so many great…umm, programs on there. So I sort of, you know, depending on how I’m feeling each day, or, umm…what the recommended workout is, I’ll, you know, pick and choose from both of those services to…match whatever the “scheduled” workout is for, for the day on the challenges. Uh. So doing that, so that’s my morning workout. And then I do my devotions. Umm. So I, I take my time, you know, to be in, in the Bible and, and think about, my faith and my relationship with God and, and all of those things, umm, you know, that come along with that. So, that’s great. Fine. And then I do…umm…you know, make breakfast…and all of…get ready for work and all of that. Umm. It’s the nighttime that I’m trying to get a better handle on. Umm. To solve my problem from my previous, uh, video. I’m trying to get myself to, you know, shut down screens, shut down my pho, not shut down my phone, but, umm, you know, put my phone aside, shut down my computer, turn off the television and go and read to make myself fall asleep….you know. Until I fall asleep. You know, so that I can do some reading every day in a fun book, that I can just escape. And it helps sort of, uh, keep me from over-processing everything, until my brain has had a chance to sleep and process it that way. So…that’s kind of where I’m at right now. And, and hopefully I can keep going. It’s going good so far. I’m doing pretty well and I’ve figured out sort of my system for, for everything. Umm. I just, there’s a couple things at night time that I kinda wanna…figure out a better…schedule or routine or process, uh, to sort of help my brain…umm…be complete and stop stressing so much because I know that things will get done…you know, in…time. So, I just need to give myself the time to get those things done. So. That’s where I’m at right now. Thank God for routine and for, umm, allowing myself to sort of focus in and, and figure that out. Umm. And hopefully I can keep that going for the rest of the year. But. I hope you all have a good day. I love you…umm…yeah, stay, stay healthy, stay happy and umm, and just know that, that I love you and that’s, that’s all I’ve got for you…Have a good day.

Reading Issues

I love to read… and…if you don’t love to read, you may not understand pretty much anything of…or not understand, but not, uh, empathize with…anything that I’m gonna say right now. But…so, those of you who are on my Facebook, uh, may have seen that my mom and I…both keep a reading log of all the books that we’ve read. Just to…keep track. And uh, so we count it…at the beginning of the year every year…and my mom read a ton of books this year. My…goal for last year was to read 75…books…Which I’ve done…in the past. So I was like, “ok I can do it.” For some reason I…While my mom like…read like a demon this year during quarantine. I…was less…excited to read…I guess. And I don’t know why? Cause I love it and I still…like, there’s all these books that I wanna read and they sound fantastic and I want to get into them…But….I don’t know if…my…the way that I think about…how, reading…or…finishing goals or, or anything. May have hindered me from doing…as much reading. Because I find right now…I’m really into the books that I’m reading, but at the same time…they’re…frustrating or I find that I, I get…I’m not reading them as quickly as I was…reading previous books by the authors that I’m reading. And, and I don’t know if its because I…am tired of their style and should try reading somebody else, or…the storyline isn’t as fascinating or…I don’t know what the problem is. I don’t know. But, or, it’s that…I’m realizing that I’m trying to get through these books, so that I can read other ones…But my problem is that I’m, like, in the middle of a couple of series…and I really wanna finish those series before…I move on to something else. Because if I stop now…and then come back to them…I’ll feel like I need to start over from the beginning and like, re-read the books that I’ve already read. And that just seems…so…ridiculous. So…I’m trying really hard to get through…the series that I’m working on right now so that…I can…move on to new authors or books or whatever… I sprinkle in, like,…um, other books. Cause I, I listen to a few podcasts that review books. So I read…you know…I’ll read one of those books in-between reading…uh, these other books. But…it’s jus…there’s so much that I want to read. And I, I feel like I’m…dragging my feet to get there. Like I haven’t finished a book yet this year and I mean, it’s only been six days I realize, but usually I could probably finish one or two books…in…a couple days. Even…with working and, and all of that, so…I don’t know. I’m not sure how to, how to go about…fixing that problem. But… you know…it’s a new year. So we’ll see what happens and I’ll just…keep on…keeping on. So, that’s my thoughts for today. Hopefully you all are having a great day and, um, a great beginning of January and…uh, here’s to, here’s to a new year. Thanks!

My Word for 2021

 

Hey everybody. Happy New Year. Umm…I just finished my workout for, my first workout, for the new year. Um and it made me think of, um, the fact that the word that I’ve decided to focus on this year is Consistency. Umm. Last year’s word was strength and I don’t know…I have to think a little bit to see how that…umm, showed up in my life. But,…this year I really want to focus on being consistent in…umm…uh, everything in my life, in my work, in my exercise, in my…spiritual life, in…my emotional life, in my relationships, all of that. So, that’s my word for this year. We’ll see how it goes. But…one of the things that I want to focus on being consistent with, and I don’t know what that consistency looks like, is posting, umm, more video blogs. Because…umm…I get joy from that. And I…you know, whether people watch and whether people care…you know. It’s… I’ve realize that I’ve missed that, umm, the last half of this year. Where, uh, I was just trying to figure out what I could do…to…Help my…state of mind and my…umm… uh, get out of my depression. All of those things. And I realized that…doing this is one of those things that I enjoy doing, whether it’s…being watched by people or not. Umm, but…it’s a way for me to…get…emotions out and thoughts out. And share a little positivity. Umm. Because that’s my focus of these, is…to try to be positive and to find positive every day. Whether it’s… uh, something little or something huge, or…uh, you know, maybe a sad memory, but that makes us happy, you know? Any of those things. So…that’s my goal for this year. To try and be more consistent. And that may…umm, it may be every day, it may be once a week, umm, it may be once a month. I, you know, just whenever I feel like I need some positivity to share and, and I have something that I wanna share. So…uh, we’ll see. We’ll see how it goes, but, umm… Hopefully you all had a great New Year’s and, umm,  are ready to focus on…whatever it is that you wanna focus on for this year. But,…peace, love, joy, those are mine. And…umm…I wish you all…uh, happiness.