A Good Day

So, today was…one of those generally just good days. You know those days? Like, so, today… I had a pretty decent day at work. Um, I had some things that I really wanted to get done, and, or needed to get done and I got most of them done. Not all of them, my computer was being feisty today. But…most of them. I got most of them done. So that was good. Feeling that sense of accomplishment and… you know… feeling like things had happened the way they were supposed to. Sorry, I’m blinding y’all again. Um, but, so THAT was good. And then I was able to connect, uh…digitally with, uh, a friend that I haven’t spoken to in a while. So it was nice to reach out to her and be able to reconnect with her. Um, Tracy Pelzer-Timm I love you. And, so that was. That was nice. And then also, uh, just my dad and I, or, have been commenting on a post I did on Facebook and, um… reminding, uh, me, of, of doing theatre with him when I was little, so…just good memories. And, and again a chance to virtually connect with my dad which is always nice. Um, cause I love my parents and, and so that was good. So, you know, just a really good day and, and I feel like I’m very settled and, and positive and in a good place. Uh, just from doing…you know…all of, uh, getting back on with the Vlogs and …doing, um, devotions every morning which is a very centering thing for me… personally. God!...and…Sorry! Umm…So I’m able to…uh, start my day with, with focus and intent…and…uh, hopefully keep a positive attitude throughout the day, uh, because I start… that way. And then I usually try to end it by being positive here, so. I feel like I’m succeeding so far which is great. Um. Hopefully I can keep it going…or, uh, you know, at least as, as often as I feel like I have something to say. Um…I’d rather …have a purpose and, and have a focus with each video versus…rr…talking about random nonsense. Which is generally what I talk about anyway. But to at least have an idea of where I’m going…with, uh, each video as it, as it gets posted. So…uh, you never know. Some days might have a, you know, focus and a theme and a…reason that I feel like I have something to say! And some of them… may just be me…randomly talking about nonsense. So…there ya go. But, uh, yeah. But, today, was a good day. I hope everybody else had one as well. And I will…see you all soon. Bye!

Nerding Out for a Sec

I am a voracious reader. Like, I love to read. Umm. Especially when I find a book that …captures my imagination and, and has characters that you really wanna, like, sink your teeth into, you know? And…I…am a huge fan of the debate between… books vs. films. You know, how people have that debate of which are better. I usually think the books are better, but really…it’s because there’s so much ability to describe and to create and, and it’s really…You see the world, uh, whether it’s real or fantasy, umm, that the author themselves creates. So you’re reading their descriptions and the characters are fully fleshed out and you understand them because you’re reading the descriptions and their inner monologues and all of those things that make people…SO… complex. And I think that some of that gets lost when it’s translated to film. Especially, because you have to cut a lot of that…description and that creation and that complexity to get something across on film. Some of it you don’t need because it doesn’t take as much to, to create a character. You, you see it in the way the actor portrays them obviously. But, I think that…there’s... something to be desired because you, there’s so much of that inner monologue I think that we lose. And, uh, there…as I read books, you know, I find these characters that I would love to play or would love to see on film. Obviously, I would love to play them on film, cause that’s what I do, but…umm,…yeah. I, there’s… some that I would fear would lose that translation and I would be upset with how…dumbed down is the wrong term, but …uh….dumbed down it would be. Because you have….those…loss, the loss of that inner monologue. And one book series that I’m super attached to right now, and mainly because there is a character that…I would love to sink my teeth into. It’s such a complex, and…uh…deeply emotional…and, and her history is, is so powerful and has so much to do with the journey that she takes throughout the book series. And not just her character, all of the characters have that. Umm, but it’s the Kate Daniels series by Ilona Andrews, who I absolutely love. Their writing is abso, amazing. And it, each of the characters, both the, the women, who you hear the story through. Umm, Kate Daniels is the main character and she, you hear the story mostly through her voice, stories mostly through her voice.  But, uh, they’ve written other, uh, side stories, umm, with some of the other female characters that they’ve introduced. So you have, uh, the character I would LOVE to play would be, uh, her best friend Andrea Nash. And…she… they, it, they’re so complex. But not only the women. You don’t get the inner dialogue from the men, but you can tell that the men that these women interact with, and fall in love with, and…uh, all of those things, but everyone who’s part of this society have such rich histories and, and they’re created and they’re brought to life and you get to see them through the way that the stories are told and written. And I…would….I would love to see it on film because I feel like it would be…SO great. That, because these characters are SO complex and are so… It’s a post-apocalyptic series and it involves magic and, you know, shape-shifters and it’s, uh, my…bailiwick if you…will. But…I…it’s also about the relationships and these, these people that are trying to survive in this society and all of the societal rules and the way that people look at each other. And…it’s, it’s a great series. So I would recommend it if you are a fantasy person. Even if you’re not, I would recommend it. Its super easy to follow. Umm. It’s, you know, it takes place in post, post-apocalyptic Atlanta, which is fun and entertaining and it… Yeah, I…it’s one of those…things that I would love to do. But AGAIN, because so much of the story is told from the perspective of… the characters and their…so their…they think, you know, you read their thoughts and their thoughts are so much of the comedy and, and….how they’re…why you connect with them is because of their inner thoughts and their inner turmoil that, that you follow them through on these, you know, epic stories. And…sss…yeah…I, it, I feel like a lot of that would get lost in translation, unfortunately. And I, I just think about what, you know, what would be a way…to do …that and to…provide…that…inner…monologue without…destroying…the storyline. I mean, not destroying, but…how, how to balance being able to share some of those really hilarious… inner...thoughts. Because the characters are horribly sarcastic when they’re thinking to themselves and processing and reacting to the things around them. But that’s what’s so funny and so entertaining and so….um, makes you able to connect with these amazing characters. And it explains a lot of how they react to things and why they react that way and…. Again, things that you can get in a book, but…I don’t know if you would be able to… translate to…film, to a film medium. But I would love, I would love to see it and I would love…to…be able to…to just do…something like that. And that, I mean its, and their… strength of these women and all of those things, so, I would check it out. It’s a great series like I said. Umm, but, and yeah, and those are the weird things that go through my head. Umm, of what I would, what I love to do, what I would LOVE to do. And that I would find entertaining and hopefully other people would find it entertaining which is why I think they would make great television or movies or however they would want to do it. But, umm, yeah. So that’s my random thought for today. Check out those books. Uh, again, the Kate Daniels series by Ilona Andrews. And I hope you all have a great day. Bye!

Listen to Yourself

Apparently I really needed sleep yesterday. Because not only did I sleep in so much that I had to like race to get to work, so I couldn’t do my workout in the morning. But then, that night, I…last night…that night, whatever, I fell asleep literally sitting up at my kitchen table. Literally. So apparently my body was in desperate need of sleep. Which I find strange, cause I haven’t not been sleeping. So, I, apparently I’m just running myself down. I don’t know. But it brings up a really important point. I had told my online fitness group that I was gonna get my workout in last night and I was gonna take a picture and I was gonna prove it to them. So here’s why you didn’t see a picture. But, I think, it’s very important to listen to what your body’s telling you. Clearly I needed sleep. Which is fine. Took a day off, it’s fine. However, it’s important not to let that turn into a new excuse. Umm, for me this is super important because I will then use those excuses to then derail everything that I’m working toward. So…today, got up, did my workout. TA DA! And, uh, moving on. So, that’s a huge success for me to say “ok, I needed a break yesterday, that’s fine. Jump back into it today, we’re ready to go.” So, wanted to share that little tidbit with ya. Listen to yourselves, let your bodies relax when you need to, let your minds relax when you need to, take breaks when you need to. But don’t give in to that. Make sure that you…recover and keep going and keep moving and keep fighting, everyday. It’s…life is a struggle, but we’re in it together. Umm…so, yeah, that’s, that’s what I’ve got for today. Have a good week everybody.

Community

Hi guys! So I was doing my devotion this morning and they were talking about being lost. And, that’s a topic that, uh, the devotions have covered before, umm, but, I was thinking about, umm. More, not like being lost physically, but being lost emotionally and spiritually. And I definitely have had those times in my life. A lot of people would say that I am still kind of going through a little bit of that. But the question was, umm, where…do you, or who, uh, helped you reorient yourself, or what helped you reorient yourself. And I definitely think that Community is really important when you’re feeling emotionally or spiritually lost. Umm, for those people that are, umm, religious then definitely your, uh, your church community, or, your umm, faith community of any kind. Umm. For me in High School, or in, College, umm, it was very much the staffs that I worked with in Summer Camp. Faith wise. But, I’ve definitely found…myself, found myself, umm, in the fitness groups that I’ve been, uh, that I’ve joined recently. And it’s super amazing, and I’ve been told, many, many times before in my life that accountability is important. Obviously. And having that supportive buddy, like a workout buddy or, uh, you know, somebody that you can reach out to to make sure that you’re doing all the things that you should be doing. And I’ve joined a couple of fitness groups on Facebook and it’s crazy how centered staying active in that will make you. And it’s blowing my mind actually. So, umm. Yeah, find your community, that would be my phrase for today. Find your community. Make it, make it tailored to you. It doesn’t have to be fitness, it doesn’t have to be faith. It could be theater. I have a wonderful theater community. It could be a quilting community, it could be, uh, whatever. Sports team, you know, anything. Whatever you find, uh, gives you passion in your life. Use that community. Not necessarily asking them for the support or whatever that you would, uh, think you need. But, just get involved. Throw yourself into it. Be fully committed to whatever that group or community is and it’s amazing the emotional support that will be given back to you. So yeah, that’s what I’ve got for today. I hope everybody has a great day. Umm. And…I’ll see ya later.

New Year Breakthrough

So I became, uhh, incognito again. But, uh, here I am trying to get back on track, and umm, do the things that I really feel like I need to be doing. Umm. Like for instance, I’ve really stepped it up both, uh, exercise-wise and healthy eating wise. It may not look like it from what’s back here, but we’re working on it. Umm. But yeah, I’ve…made kind of a major breakthrough in the last week of, uh, the year, into this new year. Ummm. And I…I just realized that I…I’m capable, and I deserve…to be happy in life. And to lose weight, and to be healthy. Umm. There isn’t anything stopping me, except for me. So, I need to stop doing that and start getting healthy and to be the way I want to be. Umm. I was doing a devotion this morning and the, one of the questions was: How much do you think other people affect the way you feel about failure. Or something like that. Umm. And I responded, cause I write in my little journal. Umm. That definitely some, I feel like other people affect my self worth, umm, in some ways. Umm, And I think that’s true of everybody. Umm. But, what I said was that I know that, umm, I feel like, uh, people don’t see me. Uh, I feel invisible a lot. And not…uh, be, it’s not anybody’s fault, I just, it’s how I feel, whether it’s true or not. Umm, but then I know that a lot of that is on me. Umm, I tend to not demand to be seen. And since I don’t always like to be in the spotlight, umm, it’s kind of a big battle.  Because, umm, I don’t like attention put on me. Umm, cause I don’t feel like I deserve it, I guess is how that works. And yet, here I am doing a video blog. So, I, you know. It’s a world of contradictions. But, yeah, so that’s where I’m at. I’m back. I’m gonna chat a little bit everyday and we’ll see how it goes. Have a great week.

Theatre Family Dynamics

One of the…funnest parts of being…in a show…is building the comradery with your cast mates. And I’m, don’t have that experience on this show, uh “Miracle in Bedford Falls” right now. Cause choreo…chor, choreographying? Wow, good English. Choreographing. I am a little bit separate from all of that, uh…, interaction that happens back stage, umm, before you go on. Uh, I’ve heard a lot of people throughout my experience talking about, umm, you know you have your pre-show rituals, or your pre-scene rituals, or as you come on stage for certain scenes you always talk to this specific person, you have your moment, umm, on stage, uh, during a scene. Umm, especially as like a chorus person where you’re pretending to be a crowd, or your walking through a street scene, so you interact and have looks that you share with different people every time you do a scene. And one of the interesting things to watch as a choreographer, umm, is to see all of those different character aspects come out and see them develop and grow, and umm. For some reason tonight I just…saw a lot more of that and reacted to it and it was funny and it…it made me smile to see some of those things. And…it…it’s interesting…to see the different ways that people interact. Umm. Both the, the actors onstage and backstage, uh, the crew. Umm. I was in a particular vantage point that I could see a little bit of all of that. I saw some of the actors onstage, I saw them offstage, I could see some of the crew in the wings, I could see the pit and how they were interacting with each other and…and then of course I was interacting with different people as well.  And it, it just really kinda brought home that family aspect of doing theater. Umm, and especially with community theater where you don’t do shows for more then a couple of weekends of performances. It really makes you realize how special those relationships and, and family moments are. Umm. You know its part of the reason we do it. Is to connect with each other and connect with an audience and, umm, just really get to explore the human experience in a way that not everyone else does. Umm. So yeah, it was…an interesting food for thought today. So, umm, thought I’d share. Have a good day.

Joys of Procedural Dramas

So, I’m really into…watching…uh, police procedural dramas. Right? I think this is something that umm, I learned… not learned, but I developed a taste for, uh, because of, uh, my grandfather and my dad. Cause we used to watch shows, umm, like NYPD Blue and Law and Order, umm as a family. That was our, we would all sit down to dinner and then we would turn on the tv and we’d all watch and we’d talk about it and, umm, it would provoke conversations during dinner, uh. But it was something that we all enjoyed watching, and commenting on, and talking about.

And, so now I find myself watching shows, umm, things like Blue Bloods, and, uh, NCIS…SSSSes all of them, uh, and the CSI,  uh, Franchise as well, and I…the thing that I love about it…is. Ooo! Criminal Minds too. Oh my gosh!  Criminal Minds fan. And…the thing I love about it is the different dynamics that the different teams have. And I always think, uh, you know, cause as an actor you’re always like “oh what type of a show would I want to be on?” and “What would I wanna do?” I would, I would love to be part of a team like that. Like a team-focused show. Because I think…I just find it so interesting. All of the different shows have different team dynamics, but each one is so interesting. Like I just…I don’t know what it is about them that just draws me in. Cause then I wanna see…I watch them more for all of the different team dynamics and how they interact with each other and, and how the relationships change and build and…you know. It’s just interesting. And to see like the little side interactions that get picked up on by…and I don’t know if those are written in, I don’t know if it’s things that develop naturally. I don’t know, but I find it super entertaining. And I love to tear it apart and…umm…sorry the cat’s doing weird things…umm. But I like to tear it apart and analyze it and, so I re-watch thin…I’m a huge re-watcher. Like I will watch things 12 times to look at different pieces of it. My parents know this. But, yeah, I just, I love it and I, I love to watch those. But then, the problem with that is that I then get sucked in and like watch, binge-watch even when I should be sleeping. Problem. So, that’s probably what I’m gonna do right now. Is I’m gonna go watch some more NCIS: Los Angeles, because that’s the show I’m hooked on right now. So, have a good day, umm, and I will see you all tomorrow.

Compliments

Hello! So today’s thought was…umm…I never…really think about the things that I say to compliment people. Which sounds really bad…but it’s not I promise. So…umm…I’ve had several moments during, uh…this rehearsal process where, I’ll give somebody a compliment or umm, we’ll be having a conversation and uh, you know, something nice will happen. And then, a couple of days later they’ll come back to me and be like “that was really nice and I appreciated that”, umm, “You have no idea how much it meant”, and, uh, you know all of those types of accolades. And…it…I don’t know why it surprises me so much to…realize that the things that I say to people they take to heart. But umm, cause I take a lot of things that other people say to heart, so why wouldn’t it go the other way? Umm, but…I…I’ve just realized it a lot during this show and I…I don’t know if it’s cause of the people that are in it? Or, umm… maybe I’m just being more aware of the way that I interact with people? Because I find that a lot of times when I’m working on a show, while I’m very much a part of it and I love all of the people that I’m working with. I always feel a little separate from the community of the show. And it’s nobody’s fault. I think it’s just my weird social anxiety…ssss…whatever issues. But,…I think I’m more connected with this show, and I, I don’t…I don’t know why. Umm. But, I’m, I’m enjoying it and it’s,…it’s nice to feel that community atmosphere, umm…So yeah. That’s my, my pleasant thought for today. Take a second to, to think about the…compliments that you got and…umm… be thankful for, for your communities. Wherever they are, and whatever they are. Have a good day.

Being Home

Today…I’m thinking about the idea of home. And what that means to different people…I mean obviously, like, your home is, you know, where you grew up, or, umm, where your parents live, or where you live with your spouse or your family…Umm… While that’s true, umm, there’s also that idea of a created home…or…the places that you feel most at home. Umm, and for some people that’s not the place where they sleep. Umm, like for me, I… say it all the time, that when I walk into a theatre I instantly feel at home. Doesn’t matter if I’ve been there …before, doesn’t matter…umm,…tsk…you know, how many times I’ve been there…or…um…if I’m working on a show or not. Just that idea of being in a place of entertainment like that…umm…it’s…comfortable…and…I…like…weight drops off …my shoulders, you know I’m able to…to forget about it for 2 hours or 4 hours or however long I’m there. Umm…no where else feels like that…and I …don’t know…umm…tsk…how to, how to recreate that anywhere else. The other place that that happens, amazingly, is at umm, is at camp. At the camps that I’ve worked at. Umm…Going to Mt. Cross in Santa Cruz…uh…I could go anytime and it feels like I’ve never left. Umm…and then, uh, Walcamp here in DeKalb. I…every time I go back it’s like going home. And…I don’t…get that…umm… in a lot of other places. Umm…I’m more comfortable in those places then I am anywhere else. And I…keep trying to figure out what that means. Haven’t figured it out yet. So…umm…but yeah,…the idea of being home and being comfortable somewhere is something…uh…that has come up a lot lately in my thought process and things that I’ve read. Umm, so yeah, there’s my thought for today. Have a good one.

Positive Mindset

Today’s Topic: Mindset. I’ve been doing a lot of devotions recently and then I listen to KLove Radio and…the…theme that seems to be running through everything I’m reading and listening to is…your mindset. And how to have a positive mindset…Harder then it seems. Just gonna toss that one out. Cause they talk about…uh, you know, ways that you can…uh, try and have a better, positive attitude…better, positive, that’s good English. A positive attitude throughout the day. And how to,…uh, maintain that and, uh, you know, all of those …wonderful things. But…it’s super hard. You know? Cause things happen during the day that irritate you or that…um…uh…you know just cause negative reactions and negative thoughts and it’s hard to… keep… focused on the positive. So that’s something I’m trying to do. And I figure if I put it out there, that it’s something I’m trying to do…maybe people will help me with that. Not that I expect you to do a whole lot. But, um, it’s just a good reminder and to make a statement to  say that I am trying to be a more positive person. Although, some people say that I’m super positive all the time anyway. Which is great. Hopefully people think that all the time. But, um,…I’ve just noticed in myself that I can be negative. So…I’m trying… very hard… to…stay positive. And I’m trying to do different things that help me…um…to get to that point. So. That is my thoughts for today. So, any ideas, please share them with me. Um…or, you know…if you just want to say Sara you look like… a crazy person, then great, please, comment. Umm, but yeah, I hope everyone’s doing great, and…we’re back at it. 

I Believe In You

You know, one of the scariest things in life, I think, is to… share with someone who’s not family, who’s not super close friend, umm, your dreams… for your life. And the most amazing thing is to have that person then support you, and believe in you, and give you more confidence that you can succeed at those things then you had yourself. Umm, yeah, like, that’s amazing! And I got to have that experience not too long ago which, umm, partially helped boost my, uh,…uh, goal to, uh, keep this going. Umm. And also just…uh, boosted my self-confidence in myself and in my…belief that I could make the things that I wanted happen. And that’s…crazy to me. Umm, I mean, I’m, you know…like, I had those goals and I had people who believed in me, and…all of those things. But…to have someone…that I wouldn’t have expected…I mean, not because they’re, I don’t think that people should believe in me. But because…I just…I don’t have that experience. So I…shared that part of myself and their immediate response was: You’ve got this. You can do this. Well of course you can do that? Why wouldn’t you do that? And my brain… had like a freak out moment where it was like: wait, that’s not the words that I was expecting to hear from them. …And…I…It’s just a…I…there’s…so many, so many emotions and so many things. But…to actually have that belief…can do so much. So it…makes me wanna…go out and believe in other people. You know? And share that sense of, of not having…boundaries put in front of you when you share something crazy. Umm, so yeah, positive thought for the day. Have a good one!

Out With The Old

All right so…another huge life event today, uh, well this week I guess. A couple of days ago I bought a new car, YAY, (laugh). Love new cars. Umm, and so today I sold my old car, which was kind of exciting, uh, but also very, very sad. Cause you know when you use something for a really long time, or you’ve owned something for a really long time, you finally decide that it’s time to get rid of it and pass it on. And then there’s that…post-ownership depression, I guess would be the best term for that, ah, shmeh, meh. Umm, but it, yeah like I was happy that I was selling my car cause I, I sold it to someone who really needed it. Umm, but at the same time I’d had that car for eleven years so… there was a little bit of my heart breaking as I saw them drive away in my car. Umm, yeah it was very sad. But, you know, I guess that’s kind of life, you know the passing off and realizing the things that you don’t need anymore.  Umm, and so you’re finally ready to step over them, or pass them off, or… you know whatever. And those of you who know me, know that I have a really hard time with getting rid of things that have sentimental value. So this was like… a big deal. Umm, but yeah I’m super excited about my new car. Umm, it’s…it’s very, very pretty. I’ll have ta…umm, post some pictures or something on here,…or… I don’t even know. But it’s a great car. Umm, so yeah, it just got me thinking about the things that we hold onto in life and, umm, when we decide that it’s time to, umm, purge those things from our life. Purge in a good way. Umm, you know, that… to step out of our comfort zone and get away from the sentimentality of it and just….clean house so to speak, sometimes literally. Umm, so yeah, so that’s my, my random thought for today. Hopefully you’re having a great day and hopefully this either gave you a laugh or, you know, just was fun to watch, (laugh). Thanks!

Goal Setting

Goal Setting. So I have been terrible my entire life with goal setting. But, lately I have been making progress on figuring out what I want to do and making plans to get there. So, today I realized just how amazing it is when you make progress of some kind, small step, big step, doesn’t matter what it is. But if it’s the right step, then, all of a sudden, you’re motivated to do so much more. Um… And that, just seems crazy to me, like, the, the change in my thinking, to be more positive. And the change in my energy level, umm, just from making changes in my life that are allowing me to get closer to the things that I want for myself. Umm…And it, you know I never really got it before. Umm, listening to people talk about: well you need to set a goal, then you need to set smaller goals, and you have to do this. And it…I just…I was like: that’s too much that’s… I can’t handle that. But…Now it kind of puts it in perspective so that I can make those changes better. Umm…So clearly one of them is to get back to my blogging. Umm…or vlogging, cause it’s a video log. Umm, but I…just thought…and was inspired to share that. That you know, if you find the right goal, you’re gonna get there. Umm, or you find the right step. Take that first step whatever it is and that sense of accomplishment and just the change in your perspective, depending on what it is, umm, can make a whole world of difference. So…good luck and thanks for listening and, and hopefully this…gave you some insight. I don’t even know. But, I’ll see ya’ll next time.

An Attempt at Positive Karma

Transcript of Video

You know those days where, umm, you wake up and you think everything is going well, and then you realize that, umm, things are just going wrong umm, and it’s not because really of anything that anybody does and it’s not because of anything that, umm you really can put your finger on. It’s just that bad things seem to be happening, like, umm, things break down, or you just have this rash of negative things that happen, umm. Kinda had one of those days today, and uh, I don’t know, I just feel the need to put some positive energy back out into the world, I guess, so, umm, I was like I need to kinda dwell on positive thoughts.

So, umm, I kind of think that positive thinking is, umm, a way of life I guess. Uhh, I have always kind of, umm, lived by the idea that you, umm, can choose your attitude for the day. Umm, you know you wake up in the morning and you think, umm, I’m gonna be positive today, or I, you know, I’m not feeling it today. I don’t really, I’m not in the mood, or I’m sick, or you know, I’ve got a headache today, I’m not feeling it. Umm, you know, and that, it does kind of temper your day, you know? You can sort of see how that makes out the rest of your day. Umm, and you know as much as I try to be positive, I, I like to think I’m a positive person. Umm, lately I’ve realized that I am not as positive as I, as I used to be and I’m sure my co-workers can, can attest to that.

Umm, uh usually when, you know, things aren’t going all that well, and, and I feel the frustration and all that negative energy around I sort of tune out as much as I can and umm, you know they probably notice that I’ll turn on the radio and switch it onto K-Love and listen to some positive music and umm. You know just kinda try and get that positive vibe going. You know chitchat a little and get some laughter moving and umm, you know cause laughter. It’s hard to be negative when you’re laughing. Umm, I think laughter is really the cure for everything. I, I can’t really think of anything else that makes me feel better, you know? I uh, I don’t know…it’s…and there’s something about…friends, and people who, you know, can make you laugh, you know? I’ve, I’ve got some great people around me, umm, at work and, you know my friends and the people that I can turn to that I can turn to that can make you laugh at the drop of a hat. You know? Those people that all it takes is you know, hey I need, I need a break and I need to, I need to just chitchat for a minute because I’m gonna explode, and, and they’re right there, you know? And that’s such a great thing to have, especially when you’re having those days when nothing’s going right. Umm, cause that, that little bit of levity can, can make the day bearable, you know, and sometimes completely turn it around and I think that’s amazing. 

Umm, and you know I just, it’s one of those just crazy things to always be positive and to always find the positive in everything. I don’t know that there is positive in everything. Umm, but there’s, you know, those people that can find it everywhere and I, I used to think that I was one of those. And, and umm, I try to be, you know, there’s sometimes you can, and, and I find it in almost everything now, but sometimes it’s hard, and, and you know, it’s, it’s definitely, definitely hard, but you know. The more positive you are, the more positive people around you are, and you know that, it can grow and that positivity grows. And you put that seed out there and see what you can plant I guess. But, umm, so yeah, I needed to put a little positive seed out into the world today because it was kind of a rough one, so hopefully this brightens your day a little, and if not I’m sorry, and if it does then hopefully the rest of your day and the rest of your weekend is good. Thanks!